Every Moment is Golden.

IMG_20140427_195930It’s a quite morning here in Swansboro NC. My weekend is winding down and the work week is around the corner. I’m sitting here thinking about how time goes by so fast. My kids are getting older and soon one will be graduating high school and the other will follow. I will be another year older at the end of the month and next year will be my 20 year high school reunion. It’s so amazing how much things can change and how sometimes life comes around in a full circle, and how everything happens for a reason. I am truly blessed with the outcome of my life at this point in time.


My brother and his family have moved to Fort Drum NY, and they are loving it. They start a new chapter in their lives and I hope that the military treats them right and they are able to experience new places and have as much fun as they can. I miss them and my nieces, and of course they are epecting to have yet another baby girl in November. Wheww… all girls, good luck with that. LOL.



My youngest will be traveling to Parris Island with her Young Marine Unit tomorrow.

She will get to experience a brief view of how the United States Marine Corps Boot Camp is all about. They will get to experience physical training, rappel tower, observe rifle range operations, crucible, obstacle course, drill practice, gas chamber, and water survival. The last day of the trip she will wake up with morning colors and attend a graduation ceremony before coming back home. This will be one many amazing trips that she will encounter. I must say I’m a bit jealous, I have not been back to Parris Island since I graduated from boot camp in 1995. I would really enjoy seeing her face and how much it would bring back memories for me. Her dad will be with her, he graduated from Parris Island as well, so it should be good for both of them.


Meanwhile my oldest is still in upstate NY, having fun and battling ear infections. She just can’t catch a break anymore, always getting sick. Hopefully she is on the other side of it and can continue to have fun before she comes home next month.


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Work is work, and I’m more into Crossfit now, working on my Olympic Weight Lifting techniques and getting stronger everyday. Looking forward to maybe one day entering into a competition, as for right now I have a long way to go. Life is good, and I cant wait to see what the next year has to offer, and the year after that, and after that.We have a color run coming up in September and I’m hoping to volunteer for the Spartan Beast in October and run the Spartan Super the next day. The rest of the year looks to be an amazing one.


I have some amazing friends, a great family, and of course my boyfriend, yes my boyfriend, has a nice ring to it. He is and has always been the only one in my life. It has taken us a few times and many years to get back to each other. I hope that it continues to be easy, comfortable, and crazy at times. Who needs constant stress in their lives, I know I don’t. We know how each other works, wants, needs, and we value each others personal time and space. Not many people can understand that, I’m very blessed.


Thanks Babe!!

Ok so this is me here and now, who knows what will happen tomorrow, but I can say that I’m up for the challenge..


Welcome 2014


Welcome to 2014. I must say that I never seen it coming. I sit here and I recall the past few years of my life and wonder where it all went. I have had many disappointments along with joy as well and I have made new friends and kept the old ones close to my heart. Life these days are a challenge for me. My kids are getting older and I sometimes break down just thinking about how far we have come as a family. We have been through so much and sometimes I regret doing the things the way that I have done. I wish things could have been better for them, but we have survived and are stronger because of it all. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes just like the rest of us. I pray each and everyday that the good Lord will provide for me and guide me on this journey. I have a new outlook on my life for this year.


I quit drinking, which in turn allowed me to lose almost ten pounds. Crazy when I think about that. It’s almost  three months now.


My kids are my #1 priority, not that they weren’t before but more so now than ever. My oldest has just completed her drivers ed course and is now ready to get her learners permit. With that being said, I now have a few grey hairs already. I have started to shoot again, (photography). This has been the best thing for me right now, I can let everything go when I’m out shooting. I think about nothing else, except for that one shot or the way the light hits a subject. I even had a chance to bring my daughter and she loved it. We explored some random abandoned houses and she went around with no fear what so ever. She did a great job in capturing the true essence of the home.

It’s hard to imagine them being all grown up and moving on in few short years. I wonder how I will be able to function without yelling at them to pickup after themselves. 🙂  It’s sad, but true, that nothing lasts forever.

I must say that I hope by that time I will have someone to fill the void, someone whom I can share my laughter and tears with once they walk out the door. Time will tell, if the Man above has someone who can put up with me, my job, my kids, my way of life. Needless to say it is pretty simple, I’m definitely not the high maintenance type. The older I get the more I realize that I can’t change who I am for someone else, and I also can’t change someone else for me. What you see is what you get, just saying. So I hope that the New Year brings many joys to my family and friends. I hope my baby brother and his newest family member here very soon, prospers and remains healthy and very happy. My sister and her family just moved into their new home and I hope they love it. My other brother is about to graduate from Army boot camp and I hope he and his family don’t get stationed too far away, so I can continue to visit.  My mom and dad are doing well, and I will be seeing them soon for my brothers graduation soon. All in all, I’m looking forward to this year. I’m thinking positive, working very hard and holding onto my kids for as long as possible.

Good Luck to everyone this year, Peace and God Bless.

Life Changing Moments

Well, it has been awhile since I have updated my blog. There has been so much that has happened since the last time I posted. Let’s just say that the drama never stops and life must go on. I have learned that no matter what road you are on and how good you think you are doing there is always something that is going to get in your way and slow you down. Life is so unpredictable and when you least expect it, it throws you a curve ball and it just so happens that I got smacked right in the face.    Screen Shot 2013-09-21 at 6.04.27 PM

   DSC_2898So with that being said let me just take you through the past couple of months. So I left off with the Color Run in Roanoke, June 22. As you know that was an awesome event and me and the girls will be going to Raleigh on the 28th of this month to do it again.

So the summer is here and the kids have so much planned it’s not even funny. June flew by and it was July already. Both Julia and Michelle are gearing up for their summer trips through the Young Marine Program. Michelle leaves on July 7, and will not be back until July 13, which is when Julia leaves for her two-week East coast history excursion called GAHA (Great American History Adventure).

Both girls are very excited and can’t wait to get on the plane and head out on their own.

The day before Michelle leaves for her trip all hell breaks loose with her dad and I. Needless to say it has been a roller coaster of a ride since then. Without going into great detail, our lives have changed and even know it’s the 20th century I cannot wrap my head around the latest events.

So again, I’m trying to pick up the pieces and get Michelle’s head on straight so she can leave for her trip for a week and not have to think about the latest drama in her life. I get her packed up and she sets off July 7th, at 0600 in the morning for Aviation Mach II camp in Huntsville AL.

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Michelle get’s into Huntsville and for a solid week I don’t hear anything from her. Of course she was having a blast and I was so happy she wasn’t home. The drama never seemed to stop and my anger just kept growing and growing. Julia was standoffish and would not even attempt to see it from my point of view, which I know is hard for a teenager to do.  With that being said a lot went on that week that was just not necessary. When you have kids, that is your priority that is your job to be there for them and to take care of them. Being a parent is a full-time job, and I have had to take a back seat to my life to take care of them, enough said.

On the 13th of July, I go and pick up Michelle from the airport. She is late getting in and we didn’t get home until 7pm so she was really out of it when she got home. Julia leaves on the 14th at 0600 in the morning for her two weeks of fun. I was jealous needless to say, she was able to go to so many places that I would never get to see at least until I retire or further down the road. And of course I didn’t hear from her for two weeks and that was really hard as well.


So while Julia was gone, I spent as much time as I could with Michelle and trying to get her to cope with the recent situation. At times she was fine, but for the most part she was and still is very questionable about it all. A week went by and Julia was traveling the East Coast and Michelle was gearing up for yet another mini trip with the Young Marines on the 25th of July.


Michelle left again for DC and I was left to figure out how to get to Arkansas. So I decided to leave the day Michelle came back, which was the day after I picked up Julia. So needless to say they both came back home and turned around and got back on the road for an 18 hour drive to see family. It was a heck of a drive but it was so worth seeing my family.  We were there for about 4 days, celebrating my b-day as well as my moms was great.

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August is here and Julia is starting her drivers ed course, wow how time flies. In two years she will be graduating high school. I’m not prepared for that at all, so I’m trying not to think about it. School is around the corner and summer is winding down. Work is going ok, training is in full swing and I’m enjoying it as much as I can. School started on August 27, and I planned one more big trip before the school year sets in and we are confined to the house all year. So it is official, we will be Charlotte bound for some whitewater rafting, zip lining, and roller coaster fun.

Labor Day is here finally, we take off for Charlotte and get into town and settled into our hotel. The next morning we head out to the U.S. National Whitewater Center for the day. Needless to say it was the best and worst day for all three of us. I can honestly say that I was excited and yet terrified all at the same time. It was an unforgettable experience and yes, I hope to do it again.


The next day we went to Carrowinds and spent all day riding roller coasters, and just having a great time.

The weekend was over as quick as it started, and we were again on our way home.

September is here and it is almost October all ready. It has been a crazy past couple of months. Very emotional and trying at times and still are. I’m glad school has started so the girls can get back into a routine, as well as soccer and school functions and so forth.

Well that’s it, quite an adventure we have had. We still are struggling with some issues and hopefully we all can get through this and be stronger later down the road. We fight, we argue, we laugh we cry, that’s what we do. Family takes care of each other when things seem to fall apart. In the end, life is unpredictable, and full of choices that you will hate to make but have to in order to move on.

Friends come and friends go, I hop that each day I have, I can accept the fact that I don’t have any control of what I can’t change. I just hope that I can learn from my mistakes, love harder, better, and pray that I can be strong for my girls everyday.

Well it’s off to Raleigh this weekend.. It’s Color Run Time.. 🙂

Till next time…….   GOD BLESS

The Day After.

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It is the day after the End of the World, and we are all still here. Here on this cold but yet beautiful Saturday, December 22, 2012. I am sitting at home thinking once again on how fast this year has gone by. Today is a new beginning for many, because of all the hype leading up to the End of the World. So what will we do now, what will we do differently, anything? I think not. Just as we try to make New Years resolutions, which never come to affluence anyway, we set our minds to try. I guess trying is better than doing nothing at all. So with that being said, today and on New Years day I will TRY to do things differently. I will try to workout 3 days a week, I will try to be patient with my kids, I will try to hug my kids more and tell them I love them every chance I get, I will try to call my family more, I will try to go to church every Sunday instead of sleeping in (occasionally), and most of all I will try to keep trying. On this first day of a New World, I will try to stay positive and reinforce myself that GOD IS in control and will provide for me and all always.

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I will try to not take each day for granted, because each day is precious. With the haunting images of the past week of precious lives lost, I will be more aware of the everyday nuances, of the little things that go unnoticed.  This is my hope, I will try on my good days and my bad. My kids are my life and it’s because of them I even try at all. Of course I have my ambitions and goals to reach, but without them I honestly have nothing. My heart goes out to Newtown CT. I can’t even imagine what they are going through and I hope that time will ease their pain but I know that it will never go away.

On a good note, I went to Church Street Pub last night and met up with some friends. As the night was winding down, there was apparently a wedding about to happen in the courtyard. So I took my trusty phone out to check out the ceremony. It was excruciatingly cold but the bride looked beautiful. Unfortunately my phone can only do so much in the dark so my photos did not turn out so well. But I did get one good one when the bride and groom came back into the pub for some warmth, good food, and defiantly good beer. I have no idea who they are but they were kind enough to let me take a picture of them. I wish them the best of luck, and a big congratulations.


It was a fun night as always. I love my town, the friends that I have and my life. Yes sometimes it’s hard and yes sometimes I feel alone, but I’m thankful to be here. It’s not everyday that someone can say that everything is as it should be right now, and right at this very moment. I’m wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Here is to another year down and many, many more to come…….. 🙂


This is what it’s all about!

December is here..


December is fianlly here, and the countdown has begun. Soon we will be bringing in yet another New Year. This to me is amazing in that, I can’t remember a year going by as fast as this one has. This time last year I was settling in to my new job and now I’m settled and in it for the long haul. Again, I must say that I was hoping to have a companion of some sort for the Holidays but as to my dismay, God has other things planned for me I guess. I know he has a specific path for me but I wish I could take a sneak peak at it every once in a while. I’m very thankful for what I have accomplished this year and the friends that I have made. With that being said, I still want to share all the good times and of course my bad times with someone special. I do have my kids and they are everything to me, which is why I’m still here. They come first and foremost as always, then maybe later down the line I might meet someone who understands that and wants to be apart of it as well.  Anyway, it has been a busy weekend and next weekend will be even busier. I have a yard sale, Young Marines, Christmas Party at Mikes Farm, and Christmas Party at Church Street so needless to say it will come and go just like that. I will also be making my last ditch attempts at packing and getting ready for my move. I will miss living out here off of the Loop. The sunrises in my backyard and it is so quite. That is what I will miss the most, even though I’m moving 5 minutes down the road the atmosphere is going to be different. This move will be better for us in that we all will have our own rooms, and no more waiting for showers. Yes, two full baths not just a bath and half. I think my kids would go nuts if they grew up im my old childhood home, 1 bath with a family of 4 kids.  Well I better get off of here, have to get things ready for another solid work week. Hoping everyone has had a wonderful start to the upcoming end of 2012. I’m hoping for 2013 to bring lots of laughter, love, and many dreams to come true.

Take care and until next time God Bless.


Giving Thanks.

I went out for an early morning walk in the cold windy air this morning. There was a slight breeze which was chilly needless to say. I can’t believe that this year is closing fast. Still, I can’t explain how I have been blessed throughout the year. I’m so thankful for my friends, family, and of course my job. With out the security of my job I would not have even half the things I have now. The girls are at Myrtle Beach with their dad and won’t be back until Saturday so, I’m taking off a little later to spend some time with friends, then off to see my brother and his family. Who knows maybe I’ll go to Wilmington tomorrow and see what happens from there.

Happy Thanksgiving To Everyone, and God Bless!!

Long Time.

It’s 8:30 P.M on the first Sunday in November, 2012. I realized that it has been quite a long time since I have updated my blog. I have been really busy with work and my kids, and buying a new home. It has been a very long journey and I’m proud to say that I have finally reached that point that I can get a home and call it my own. Hopefully I can move in right before Christmas. The girls are excited just as much as I am, me especially, they finally get their own rooms..YES!!!

This year has gone by so quickly, I have no idea where it went. I truly hope this time next year I will be able to spend the Holidays with someone special, always looking, and hoping. In the mean time it’s me and the girls and of course my work. Speaking of my work, I’m blessed with great co-workers and a job. It is so hard out there these days and I thank God each and every day for the opportunity to go in and work with such great people. The day is winding down, and I’m pretty tired. I have been packing throughout the day and actually laughing at all the stuff I have found along the way. Most of the things I found brought back such good memories, and of course had me asking a few questions as to why they didn’t last. Obviously you can ask why, but you may not get the answer you are looking for, so just take each day as it comes and make the best of it. Maybe one day it will work out and I can sit back when I’m 90 and give a big thanks to the Lord above on the path he set me on. Until then, I still give thanks and hope that one day I can share all of this with the one who will be with when I do hit 90. 🙂