It’s been over a year now since I have posted to my blog. The world around me has changed dramatically needless to say. Life has a way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it, if you are not paying attention you will get hit right between the eyes. I’m still very blessed with my life, but I lost my momentum and I am still struggling to regain some kind of cohesion.
A man that I admired, loved and looked up to my entire life, my dad, passed away in March. This was the last picture I had with him, I wish it wasn’t so blurry but it is all I got.
It was the hardest day of my life and I still struggle with his passing today. It has almost been a year now without hearing his voice and laughter. My mother, my baby brother and his family, has since moved from the very place we all grew up which was another heart felt loss. But was needed to move on and heal.
Just knowing that I will never have a need to go in that direction again is still very surreal to me. My sister and her family still live in the vicinity but they too will have no need to travel in that direction and I know it is much harder on them. We went out for Thanksgiving to see them and it was great visiting with my nieces and nephew and walking around the property and my hometown one last time.
Just this morning I was reading a post on Facebook about a loss of a loved one, and not being able to be with them for the holidays, and the waterworks set in. You will never get over the loss of a loved one, especially a parent, never. I know that he is in a better place, and pain free, and one day I will see him again. My family and friends are keeping me strong and we lean on each other everyday for comfort. My girls keep me on my toes as well, and Im very proud of both of them.
My boyfriend of almost 2 years now has helped me through and I am so appreciative for that.
He means everything to me and I’m not sure where I would be without him in my life. It has been a long year, full of many ups and downs. Even though with the loss of my father I have kept a good pace, earning my Spartan Trifecta with Patrick. We pushed each other and overcame many obstacles, physical and mental. I know I have a long road ahead, and that I really need to get back into Crossfit because it actually kept my mind and body at ease.
Overall my year has been hard but with the help of my whole family it gets easier day by day. My baby brother and family added to the tribe with a baby boy, my Nana had her 75th birthday party, full of surprises and many, many more great moments have been this past year. Needless to say I am very blessed with what I have. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of my loved ones. Remember to say I love you, kiss and hug each other every single day, you never know when it’s your last. Here are a few more of my year, enjoy.