Welcome to 2014. I must say that I never seen it coming. I sit here and I recall the past few years of my life and wonder where it all went. I have had many disappointments along with joy as well and I have made new friends and kept the old ones close to my heart. Life these days are a challenge for me. My kids are getting older and I sometimes break down just thinking about how far we have come as a family. We have been through so much and sometimes I regret doing the things the way that I have done. I wish things could have been better for them, but we have survived and are stronger because of it all. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes just like the rest of us. I pray each and everyday that the good Lord will provide for me and guide me on this journey. I have a new outlook on my life for this year.
I quit drinking, which in turn allowed me to lose almost ten pounds. Crazy when I think about that. It’s almost three months now.
My kids are my #1 priority, not that they weren’t before but more so now than ever. My oldest has just completed her drivers ed course and is now ready to get her learners permit. With that being said, I now have a few grey hairs already. I have started to shoot again, (photography). This has been the best thing for me right now, I can let everything go when I’m out shooting. I think about nothing else, except for that one shot or the way the light hits a subject. I even had a chance to bring my daughter and she loved it. We explored some random abandoned houses and she went around with no fear what so ever. She did a great job in capturing the true essence of the home.
It’s hard to imagine them being all grown up and moving on in few short years. I wonder how I will be able to function without yelling at them to pickup after themselves. 🙂 It’s sad, but true, that nothing lasts forever.
I must say that I hope by that time I will have someone to fill the void, someone whom I can share my laughter and tears with once they walk out the door. Time will tell, if the Man above has someone who can put up with me, my job, my kids, my way of life. Needless to say it is pretty simple, I’m definitely not the high maintenance type. The older I get the more I realize that I can’t change who I am for someone else, and I also can’t change someone else for me. What you see is what you get, just saying. So I hope that the New Year brings many joys to my family and friends. I hope my baby brother and his newest family member here very soon, prospers and remains healthy and very happy. My sister and her family just moved into their new home and I hope they love it. My other brother is about to graduate from Army boot camp and I hope he and his family don’t get stationed too far away, so I can continue to visit. My mom and dad are doing well, and I will be seeing them soon for my brothers graduation soon. All in all, I’m looking forward to this year. I’m thinking positive, working very hard and holding onto my kids for as long as possible.
Good Luck to everyone this year, Peace and God Bless.