Happy Thanksgiving.

What am I thankful for this year? First and foremost my family. My family keeps me grounded and stable through the hard times which were many this past year. Family is very important to me and without them I would be in a whole world of hurt right now

Second my friends. Friends are a big part of my life. They tell me if I’m being paranoid or to go for it when I have doubts. Friends are the backbone to life’s long journey. They are their for you when you are down, when you succeed, and when you fail. They do not judge and are quick to tell you what you are doing wrong. Without my friends I would not be who I am today. Friendships may come and go but the lasting impressions of them will be with me forever.





“A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often – just to save it from drying out completely.
Pam Brown


Third, my kids. They are my life and keep me on my toes 24/7. They are the reason why I do what I do. Everything is for them and making them happy is an everyday process. Without my kids there would be no me.

“There is no friendship, no love, like that of the parent for the child.” Henry Ward Beecher.

Even though they drive me crazy most of the time, without them around my mind wonders and I’m a dangerous person when my mind wonders. They keep me in check and I cannot see my life without them. I love them dearly.

This is only part of what I am thankful for this year. There is so many things but these are on the top of my list. The new year is fast approaching and I hope that this year will be much better, full of laughter, love, and prosperity. I hope I can make new and lasting friendships, relationships, and more while holding on to the ones that I do have. HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL.. God Bless. 🙂

Morning News

It’s a little past 5 in the morning and the sun is still hiding in the nights sky. I’m laying here in bed pondering over my thoughts about the last phone call I received almost a half hour ago. We all new it was coming but yet nothing can prepare you for a loss. You would think my family and I would be used to this by now. Of course I’m sure you know by now what I’m talking about.       At 3 am this morning my dads dad passed in his sleep. He has been fighting for over a half a year now with medical issues and he finally said his last good byes. These last couple of months have been hard to say the least. His wife my Mamma, passed away on the 29th of this month 9 years ago and now they are finally together again. Finally able to bicker, argue, and nit pick at everything they did or said to each other. The funny thing about that is, that’s how they showed their love for one another. That is how they cared. I have said this in my previous blogs many, many times, but this year has been a very rough year for my family and friends. I think I’m numb to it all because I haven’t really broken down. As I lay here in my bed waiting for the sunrise, I thank God for taking him in his sleep. I thank God for giving him peace and comfort. My papa is gone but I know that I will see him someday and that is what keeps me going. Now we start over again, just like we did when my other grandfather passed away at the beginning of the year. Just like we did when my good friend passed, when my childhood home burnt to the ground, when my dad had his heart attack, when my mom was so stressed she had to be put in the hospital and with the passing of my papa. So many things has happened this year, so many lives changed forever. God is in control and he determines who stays and who goes. It was his time, his time to be with his wife and friends. Now comes the hard part, I will have to tell the girls later today that he is gone. They will probably take better than me, knowing they didn’t see him all that often. My memories I will hold dear, all the trips we took to Denver. Times when at the time, seemed boring to a young kid, now I treasure the most. I will remember as a kid when every time I visited or they visited there was always a chocolate bar in the fridge for us kids. According to my mom, up until the very end he still loved his sweets. Papa was a character, he always reminded me of Popeye. I also remember him always showing us how he could blow up his arm muscles just by blowing on his thumb. I showed my kids that years ago and they were amazed. Things like this will stay with me forever. The sun has yet to make an appearance, so I sit and wait. It’s already 6 and I have spent an hour on and off on today’s blog. There is a slight sign of the sun so I am ending here.  I love you Papa, you are no longer in any pain and I miss you already.

Semper Fidelis USMC

I just want to say Happy Birthday to all past, present and future Marines. As much as I  complained while being in the Marine Corps, I can honestly say that it has changed me forever. Becoming a Marine was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. The honor that one receives when he/she finally has the Eagle, Globe, & Anchor is a tremendous feeling that no words can express. Too ALL Veterans who gave their lives so others may live, I thank you. Big Shout out to my Dad, who is the reason I joined the Marine Corps and my Uncle Yogi who also kicked ass and took no names.


This Time Last Year.

It has been a long week and I must say I have been thinking about the past much more than I should. This year is coming to a close and it has been a very long and hard year. I have loved, lost, and well…. loved & lost some more. I’m emotionally drained and my kids are not helping. I try so hard to do the best for them and still get walked all over. Yes I know they don’t understand but it still sucks. I find myself thinking about what I was doing this time last year. I had a great friend that I cared deeply about and thought that I would have that friendship forever. But of course I too lost that friendship this year, not to death, but because we were both at different points in our lives. One was ready and one was not, and vice versa at one point in time. I guess I’m just having one of those days. I miss everyone that I have lost this year and I wish things could be different. It’s an everyday struggle for me to not think about those certain people who were once part of my life. They will always and forever be a part of me and I hope that one day I may see them again.

On another note, I’m going back to school, this time too finally finish. A Bachelors in Criminal Justice is my goal. So my days are going to get busy in January.  I’m crossing my fingers on a job opportunity to pop up here soon within the Police Department, Sheriffs Department, Highway Patrol, ect.. Who knows what will happen tomorrow, hope it will be a better day than this..