It has been almost a month since my birthday bash, and my little swim. I was cleaning out my drawers and came across the phone that received the brute of the swim that I had taken. I put in my old sim card and my battery and to my amazement, it worked screen and all. I was able to download some pics of a beautiful sunset from that night and now I have a back up phone when I need it. Life is great… 🙂
My girls are in school and doing well. My classes are all in order and up to date. I will have Internet at home on Monday, thank God… My bills are paid for the month, and I’m starting a new workout regiment on Monday. So far life is okay. I have a couple of papers to write one I can hold off until next week, the other I would like to finish it by tomorrow so I can enjoy the weekend. Also, I am working on getting my passport application filled out and sent off next week. I have a big trip next year and I am determined to go.
On another note, I have been feeling a little bit lonely lately. Even though the girls are here and I have been keeping myself busy there is still that one element that is missing. Everywhere I go I see couples together, holding hands, going to the movies, going to the beach, and more. I miss the connection like that with someone. I miss hearing someone say I miss you or someone who wants to be with me in spite of all the things I have got going on in my life.
Then when I sit down to think about it, it is also nice to just be on your own. It’s nice to be able to go anywhere you want and not have to answer to no one. But in reality you can only take that for so long. My oldest daughter, who will be 11 in the next couple of weeks, has a boyfriend. She is only in the sixth grade and of course she has no idea what the concept of having a boyfriend is but she has one. I was joking around with her last night and said that she could have a boyfriend as long a I had one. Well I don’t have one so she couldn’t have one, that didn’t work out very well.
The weekend is here and I plan on relaxing. I plan on doing as much as I can today, clean the house, fold clothes, and work on my paper. Maybe I will be able to get out and go to the pub for a beer or two, not quite sure I have to play it by ear. September is here already and Julia’s birthday is coming sooner than I thought. This year has flown by and I’m sure next year will be the same.
I was talking to a very special friend of mine and we both came to a conclusion about life. Things have changed and relationships aren’t quite like they used to be. Now a days people don’t stay together much anymore, and it’s getting harder to find that one person who will be with you forever. I personally don’t want to be alone that long. I’m not saying that change is a bad thing, I mean if you are happy with the way things are than so be it. I just hate being alone, especially when I know what I want and I know I can’t have it. That is the hardest part to deal with. Anyway…………………………….. I will deal with the best way I know how… stay busy and leave it up to God…..
On top of everything else I found out this morning that my great Aunt passed away last night from cancer. She has been struggling for quite some time now and it finally caught up with her. I vaguely remember her but family is family and hurts just the same. I know she is in a better place, a place where there is no pain or suffering and that comforts me in the long run. Even though I complain about being lonely and having bad days I am so grateful to just be here. I try to cherish each and every moment that I can and love the ones who mean the most to me.