Home and Feeling Relaxed!!!!!

It’s Sunday the 28th of June and I have been back from Arkansas for about three days now. Julia and Michelle are still with their grandparents. My trip was a good one, long but enjoyable. It was nice to see everyone and even though I wasn’t able to stay very long the time that I did have was great. I had forgotten how hot Arkansas was until I crossed the TN/AR state line and was bombarded by the unbearable heat. Even though the weather was crazy,

HomeI was still able to get some good shots while I was home, venturing out only in the mornings and evenings to shoot. I grew up in this house that my parents still live in. It has it’s problems but they seem to manage just fine. I can remember during the winters, my bedroom had no ceiling in it at the time, so no insulation either. I would sit a cup of water on my night stand before going to bed and waking up the next morning to find it frozen solid. In the summers we worried about scorpions and snakes and even other types of creatures getting into the house. I had plastic that was stapled to the rafters of the ceiling and I could lay in bed at night and here the bugs and lizards crawling right above me. I sounds horrible but I was used to it we all were. We managed fairly well and of course us kids complained just like everyone else.

Back of the House

Back of the House

Flowers In Front Of House

Flowers In Front Of House

The town that I grew up in has changed, they have a new high school, Subway, grocery store and they are now putting in a couple of stop lights in the middle of town. The saw mill is still up and running, without it Mansfield would turn into a ghost town for sure. I took a day before coming back to NC to take some photos of Fort Smith, Judge Parkers courthouse and the gallows.

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The Gallows

The Gallows

Judge Parkers Court House

Judge Parkers Court House

Here are a few more interesting photos that I like

Family in front yard

Family in front yard

Flower with Fisheye

Flower with Fisheye

Sitting at Diane's House

Sitting at Diane's House

Mom and Dads

Mom and Dads

Immaculate Conception of Fort Smith

Immaculate Conception of Fort Smith

IC of Fort Smith

IC of Fort Smith

It was nice to get back on the road and head home though. It was a little wierd because it was so quite. I had no one to talk to and no one asking are we there yet or I have to go to the bathroom. I made it into Nashville and stopped for awhile to take some more photos. Here are some of those.

Parthenon, Nashville TN

Parthenon, Nashville TN

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Walking the Dog

Walking the Dog

As you can see in the distance there is someone walking their dog. This just gives you an idea of how big this thing is. It’s nice to be back home. I’m relaxing today and enjoying some quite time. I went to church this morning and I feel refreshed. Had a great weekend and I have changed my way of thinking for the time being. I have decided to just have fun, live each day like it was my last.

Life is very fragile and if you don’t have fun, take chances, and enjoy it it will be gone before you know it.

“And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.”

Abraham Lincoln

Home Again….

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I arrived in Arkansas on Thursday afternoon, tired and ready for a beer and a nice bed. The old town looks the same except now they are putting in some traffic lights, which seems weird to see in this small town of over 1,000. Mom and Dad are doing well and were excited to see us kids all here at the same time. It’s been a busy couple of days and I am very exhausted. I love my family and it  means a lot to me that we can all get together after being apart for some time. The girls are doing well and enjoying all of the attention that they are getting. My grandparents are doing great as well and are happy to be here. Here are some pictures of my home that I grew up in and of the family. Will post more soon.

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It’s Final

0611091606-01It’s Saturday and I’m now officially divorced. Not to say that divorce is a good thing, but it is a new beginning. I have been contemplating my life and where it is headed. I will have a whole month without the girls, and I can honestly say that I’m looking forward to some peace and quite. I hope to do some camping and just hang out with friends and looking for a job as well. I am sitting outside the library since it closed at 3 (sucks) squeezing out as much Internet service as I can. I got all caught up with my online class and bills, and now updating my blog for the last time until I get into Arkansas. We leave either on Tuesday or Wednesday I haven’t made up my mind yet. I have nothing to do here so I think we will leave on Tuesday, I am getting excited to get on the road. Anyway it’s hot out here and I’m headed to hang out with some friends this evening. Look for my next post from the great state of Arkansas…….. :0

Long Week Ahead……

toadily-insaneIt is the beginning of a long week. I’m starting off my day at the coffee shop, loading up on some caffeine and checking my emails and blackboard work. I have been without Internet for the whole weekend as well as being in a slump with no sense of urgency to get out of. I am moving a little bit quicker this morning knowing the fact that my ex is probably in town already. We have talked very little and I’m not sure what the outcome is going to be after the 10th but I will be as civil as I can, for the kids sake obviously.

Today will be a busy day, after leaving the coffee shop I have to cook for Julia’s class party today. They are having a Mexican fiesta, so I’m cooking a casserole. Than I have to clean and prepare for Tim to get here this afternoon. Probably go out to eat or he will take the girls for a little while not sure. Nothing going on tomorrow, just working and doing research on my paper for my Developmental Psych.. class.. (fun)

Wednesday will be extremely busy and I’m looking forward to Thursday, it needs to get here quick. I have ordered some film for my Holga and can’t wait to get into the camera for my trip next week. Even though my class is moving so fast I need to get away from everyone and everything. I’m trying my best to give everyone their space, and learn to except what I cannot change no matter how bad I want them to. So with that said, this is probably why I’m in such a slump, go figure?????

My dad is doing so much better and hopefully he will be released from the hospital this week. I can’t wait to get on the road and just go. The drive will be long but I’m looking forward to it.. I will stop along the way and get some shooting in hopefully, if time permits. I would like t make it at least in to Nashville by the evening of the 17th… nashville-skyline-11Nashville TN Waterfront

If I have enough money and time I plan on staying in Nashville on my way back for a couple of days. Who knows I will play it by ear. I will post more soon 🙂

God is Everywhere

I have been pretty busy these past couple of days and it seems that I have been going 9o miles an hour but not getting anywhere. I had my orientation for ECU yesterday and it went well. I’m really excited to get this started and get into a routine of some kind. I have been applying for jobs here and there and still nothing. The most recent one is in Beaufort and it looks promising so hopefully I will here back from them soon. We leave for Arkansas soon and the girls get out of school on the 10th. Which is Michelle’s birthday and her dad will be here for that. Shouldn’t be too bad we have talked since the last fall out and everything seems to be ok. My dad was put into the hospital last week and is still there. We all had a scare yesterday and I was a nervous wreck until that evening. God is everywhere, the more you realize this the more it helps. I have been praying everyday and night for things to work out and it seems to be working. Even though I feel alone I know that God will always be there for me. There are things that happen in life that you have so many questions about and you wonder why this happened. You can’t do anything about it, you have to move on and try to make the best of what you have. You only have on life to live, take chances. Although life is not perfect and you can’t make things happen they just do, it’s nice to know that you have the love of God on your side when everything seems to fall apart, always and forever. God Is Everywhere72Rosary

I’m reading a new book and I can’t seem to put it down lately. There was a couple of quotes in it that I absolutley fell in love with here is one of them.

“Take a breath, love is scary and sometimes it’s transient. But it’s worth the risks and the nerves. It’s even worth the pain.”