Finding Faith…..& Peace of Mind

prayerI find myself asking more questions and trying so desperately to find the answers. The basic questions of life. You know, the whys and what ifs’. My journey to a better life is not so much coming to an end but it’s just the beginning. April 11th Easter Vigil, me and the girls will be Baptized into the Catholic faith. We have already found a home within the church, accepted by many that I now call my extended family. I (we) will continue to build our faith and strength with God with each passing day. Though I strive for the patience with my kids, for the guidance in times when I feel so alone, for the comfort and peace of mind when everything around me does not go as planned, I can say that this is the path that God has chosen for me. Living each day as it comes and accept what is and isn’t.

mary Friday night was The Stations of the Cross through Mary’s eyes. I’ve never really thought about the life of Jesus and him dying and the resurrection through his/our mother. We (RICA class) sponsored this weeks Stations and while some walked to each station three of us including myself read aloud five stations each. I had the last five which were Jesus is Nailed to the Cross, Jesus Dies on the Cross, Jesus is Taken Down from the Cross, Jesus is Laid in the Tomb, and Jesus is Raised from the Dead. This all in itself was so emotional, that I got choked up but pulled through to the finish. I was greeted afterward by so many people of how well I had done with the readings. Father Don approached and asked if I wanted to read during mass on some occasions since I did such a great job. Of course I said yes, but I was so nervous talking in front of so many people, I must of hid it pretty well. It was a moving experience and I was blessed to feel a since of belonging.

It’s been a good weekend so far, I took the girls out to eat and then to the movies on Saturday. Spent the whole day shopping and returned home for a great dinner and yet another movie that I haven’t seen in many years (My Girl). Of course I cried right along with them at the end. I attempted to clean, but didn’t get very far. I have changed my mind about Memphis in May it is definitely out of the question, being that I can’t afford two trips in a two month span. However, I have recently found a couple of art galleries in Nashville that I want to go to in June. So my plan now is to stay in downtown Nashville on my way back through from visiting with family and friends. This should be a great artistic break since I missed out on Dallas SPE this year.


What really is exciting is that I found a permanent original collection at the The Carl Van Vechten Gallery (Fisk University), of Alfred Stieglitz, with Georgia O’Keeffe, Renoir, Cezanne, Picasso, Toulouse-Latrec, and much more .

Also Nashville has a full sized replica of the Parthenon with house a full sized replica of Athena. This will probably be as close as I can get to Greece. I can’t wait, food, fun, the night life. You have no idea how excited I am.



Cathy and Patrick are back from the conference in Dallas and I can’t wait to hear all the wild and crazy stories that always accompany the SPE conferences. It turned out to be a beautiful day today (Sunday). I might take the girls and go out for the sunset on the beach, who knows. Either way it has been a good weekend. 🙂

Summer is Coming…

I sit here in the coffee shop as usual, finishing up some school work. I can honestly say that I’m a little bummed. Tomorrow is the start of the National SPE conference in Dallas, Texas and I was so sure that I was going to be able to go, but unfortunately my finances were not that stable. So I will concentrate on work and school for now. May and of course June is around the corner


Memphis in May kicks off the first weekend in May and I’m looking into that. Maybe go out to Silky O’sullivans for a night out. Trying to figure out a way to get out there, maybe meet my sister and just live it up for the weekend. There are supposed to be some hot bands playing that weekend out on the Mississippi and off of Beale Street. And of course June is around the corner as well. I’m supposed to be dropping off the girls in Arkansas to visit with their grandparents and I will head back a couple of days later. So we will see how everything works and try to plan, even though my plans seem to fall apart.

Me and the girls had a great time a couple of weekends ago, for St. Patrick’s day. We hit Church Street Pub and Deli for some good food and good music. Jennifer Licko Shelton indexpic

was playing and it was standing room only. It’s always a lot of fun when she comes out. She gets everyone involved in the music and girls just love her. We have seen her I think about four times now.

Jennifer Licko Church Street Pub Swansboro, NC

Jennifer Licko Church Street Pub Swansboro, NC

picture-3 This past weekend Harrika’s Brew Haus (911 Restoration), had a free beer tasting in there backyard beer garden. They had great beer, food, and great music from My Three Kilts.
Which were pretty awesome by the way.

My Three Kilts

My Three Kilts

So this weekend is going to be soccer and try to get some rest and relaxation. Hopefully my taxes will hit and I can go out and by a new TV, pay bills, ect.. Never stops. The SPE Regional is in Oct. in Atlanta so I have to prepare for that one. I WILL go to that one…. 🙂

Roller Coaster Ride…

My week has been a roller coaster ride, full of all kinds of emotions some that I have never even felt before. Let’s just say that I have never felt more uncomfortable in my own home and neighborhood than these past couple of days. My privacy was invaded and I felt as if I had lost control of what was going on in my life. It only takes one person for you to realize that you shouldn’t let your guard down for nothing. I myself can say that I have no intentions on letting my guard down anymore. But with that said the situation has been taken care of and I am so very grateful for the special people in my life. mojo1The girls and me did some dog sitting these past couple of days. We were able to get away from the house and take a break from all of the weirdness going on. It was nice to get away and feel safe and secure again. It’s sad when something happens and you can’t feel safe in your own home. But everything is looking up and hopefully the weather will get better soon.bear-island-052 I’m looking forward to going to the beach and camping this year. Work is still in full swing as is school. I won’t know until next month if I have been accepted into the teaching program at ECU. I have been accepted to the college itself and I have passed the necessary requirements for the program, but I just have to wait and see. I will continue to take classes and get as much done as I possibly can to reach this other goal in my life. It’s necessary for me to continue because I need this for me as well as my girl’s future.

img_0524April is around the corner and soon school will be out. Spring break is winding down for me and the girls will have theirs after Easter. If everything goes well and I can pay off some bills and get comfortably caught up, I will take them camping or down to Myrtle Beach for a couple of days. Who knows, it all has to depend on money, which is in very short supply these days.outer_banks_nc_home

I’m still house hunting as well. The apartment has suited its purpose and I am now in desperate need for a bigger place. The girls need their own bedrooms and I myself need more space. As for Jaucie I am keeping her, having her here with us makes me feel much safer, and that helps me sleep a little bit better at night. She is a hand full but if you get to know her she is the biggest baby, and fun to play with. She also needs a bigger yard to run and play in as well.
So I’m keeping my fingers crossed and saying my prayers daily. I know things will work out; they always do in some way. I know that God is in control, and he has a path for me, even though I may not know it yet.
It’s getting to be about that time, have to get moving and head out of town for the day. Hope everyone is safe and sound and staying warm on this dreary day.
Take Care,

6 a.m.

My alarm went off at 6 this morning and I was up getting the girls ready for school. I was in the middle of putting Michelle in the shower when the phone rang. Thinking, who would be calling me this early in the morning, I prepared myself for the worst. It was an automated voice telling me that the Onslow County School systems were on a 3 hour delay due to the storm. I was thinking to myself, what storm are they talking about, are they crazy. I looked out my window and this is what I saw.img_0004

So the snow is here and will be gone by 11. The girls will be in school, and I plan on working on some projects and also cleaning the house. Not much for the day just taking it easy and planning for the next couple of days. So with that said I’m off, to work and clean. Hope everyone stay warm.