Weekend Before School…..

This past weekend I took the girls out for a picnic. We had a good time and the weather wasn’t so bad.. Sprinkled on us a little but it felt better than having the sun beat down on us. Took a look at the camp sites they had  and decided that we should do some camping before winter sets in.

 

I have enjoyed my summer and now I am looking forward to some cooler weather. Although I tend to freeze easily, its easier to wrap up in some blankets and get in and get nice and comfortable. They are excited to be in school now being that it is Wednesday and they started yesterday. Still trying to adjust to the new school but making new friends and having fun. Here are a few shots that I took while out with the girls. It is nice to be able to get out every-once in a while and just shoot to shoot, and try to spend some quality time with family, friends and the ones that mean the most to me. 

… we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that’s so deeply a part of your being that you can’t even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless. “Paul Bowles”

Enjoy

Hopefully more quality weekends to come. To shoot, and have fun…. 

Until next time remember to Always Smile 🙂

Beginning of the Fall Semester…

   I’m sitting here in my bedroom enjoying a beer and thinking of how odd it is to not be attending the fall semester. I think about how much time has gone by, and all the friends that have come and gone.

           

      

Sitting here I’m also amazed at the fact that I have a great job that allows me to be with friends and coworkers that mean so much to me. I’m in the process of doing research on colleges that will help me achieve my next goal in life and that is my Bachelors degree. Where and when is also my objectives, also $$$$$ is a necessity for this goal. 

   So with that said, I am concentrating on my job and my girls. They start school on the 26th and I think that I am more excited about that than they are. So while they are in school I will be working and attempting to try for a second job just to cover the basics as they arise.      Started on some painting this weekend, felt really good to put something on the canvas. Trying something different this time, don’t have a plan or a still life, just going with the flow and see where it ends up. Using a lot of color this time, I find myself in a happier place than when I started to paint. I can see all the darks that I began with not so much disappear but fade and now I’m more vibrant with colors. It’s getting better as time goes on and as for me, just like always I have my good days and bad days, but I can now say that I’m having more good days than bad…. Until next time  🙂

A New Adventure Awaits……….

CCC Graduation 8/03/08

Wishing the Whole Gang Was Here!!

Graduation has come and gone and I have had a wonderfull ride. A new adventure awaits and I’m looking forward to the future and what ever it may hold. I’m much more at ease and I can honestly say that I am happier now and more relaxed. Had a fantastic time after the graduation, with friends and family I will post some of the fun pics soon. 

Loven the moments 🙂

Awaiting more pictures of some special friends. 

Consumed by Emotions……

When we learn to manage our emotions long enough to stop and shift our attention to the quieter message of the heart, we can gain a wider perspective on any situation, often saving ourselves from hurt, frustration and pain.


                             The past couple of days have been weighing on my mind, heart, and soul, not to mention my body. Stess is a silent killer and I won’t let it consume me. I have been thinking a alot about moving and starting over in a new enivironmet. But, I can’t help to think that I’m just trying to run away from the stress of everyday life. I go through these spells and it’s hard to see the positive when the negative is pressing down with all its force. Emotionally I am a wreck and I’m pretty good at hiding it when I need to. I love my family and I would do anything for them, but with that said I can’t do it all. You can only do so much before you just have to say no and walk away. I’m struggling with the fact that Julia and Michelle’s dad      is gone and that they are missing him dearly. I’m hurting in ways that it is so hard to explain. I care more about what other people are feeling and how they are taking it, and to see them hurt makes me hurt. I can deal with him being gone, I need a new beginning, but when I know how bad it hurts the girls and of course him it kills me to think that I’m taking them away from him. I considered letting them stay with him, but he is still in the service and can be deployed at anytime, than what?


                     I love my girls with all of my heart and I know once I get them on a schedule and they start school everything will seem to fall in place, their attitude has changed in the last month that they have spent with their dad, so they have to get used to me and my rules now, and I have to get used to them not listening which is  normal. It’s going to take time and love to make it work.  

Personal life is a struggle as well. I have a few people that are very special to me right now and I don’t want to loose that connection at this time of my life. Iv’e grown very attatched and can’t seem to let go and I don’t want to. I hope that they can see how much they mean to me and how I’m very thankfull to have them in my life. Life is complicated and sometimes it’s hard to see past all the what if’s and if only’s. All I can do is live each day as best as I can, enjoy the relationships that I have and treasure each and every moment that I’m with the ones that I LOVE.

LOVE is all that matters right?

🙂