Life moves on, whether we act as cowards or heroes. Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for him who has the vision to recognize it as such.
Time is winding down and the summer semester is about to begin. It seems as though I have lost something along the way and for one reason or another I can’t seem to find it. Not knowing what it is makes it even harder to find. It’s time to work hard and finish this part of my life and move on. I’m not doing so well with all of my issues these days. One minute I think that things are turning around and than I get the rug pulled out from beneath me. I’m definitely not the type of person to show my feelings, or even talk about them, it takes a special kind of person to bring it out of me and that in it’s self is hard to do. I’m to that point where I’m tired of trying and I just want to walk away from it all, start over where no one knows me, and that feeling scares me the most.
Even though I may have my bad days, I also have great days. So I Iook forward to my great days and time spent with my special friends and family who by all means, mean more to me in this hectic world we live in than anything else. Without the support and kindness of everyone I couldn’t do it alone, and I wouldn’t want too… So thank you to everyone who has played a part in my life and who will continue to play a part as long as time will allow.
Life is about challenges, unanswered questions, and taking chances. I myself need to take some chances and just let go….
I have to remind myself to smile these days … 🙂 It’s easier to give advice than to take your own.. I’m still working hard on that one.
“My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and to try to love somebody and have the courage to accept love in return”.