Monday the 13th day of July. I have been in a mood for a about a week now and can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that everything has changed in my life. I find myself drifting toward the idea of moving to Colorado more and more each day. 
Although I have a great opportunity here to go to ECU, and get my teaching degree, it’s going to take awhile to achieve. I finally received news about the Pell Grant and others so I’m all set for the fall. My summer class has just ended and I finished with a B.. I’m happy with that, knowing that it was a Dev Psych class all on-line in 8 weeks, I think I did pretty well. This fall will be very demanding on me, three classes with ECU and two with Carteret, all on-line.

House of Blues Inner Wall
Now I need to concentrate on getting back on track with my emotions. They tend to run me into the ground sometimes. I took off to Myrtle Beach on Saturday for the day and I am going to drive up the coast here in the next couple of days or maybe next week not sure. It’s raining terribly now so I’m not sure how the weather is for the remainder of the week.

House of Blues
It’s funny sometimes, you look at your life and think that you have everything you need, and than you realize you have nothing at all or it would seem that way. I sit here in my home wondering if this is what I truly want out of life. I have come to a point in my life that I’m just not satisfied anymore. I’m not satisfied with way I feel, the way I give in and than knowing what will happen next but trying to ignore it anyway. I can say that I am a strong person but you can only take so much and than you have to walk away. I have gone from a crazy marriage to a bitter divorce and into what I thought was a great relationship, which in fact wasn’t a relationship at all. I need to look at people much better, not get involved anymore, take care of myself and my kids and not rely on anybody else. Anyway enough with the rambling.
Here are some more pics of Myrtle Beach enjoy

House Blues of Courtyard

House Blues of Entrance

Senor Frog Grand Strand MB

Liberty

Jimmy Buffet, Margaritaville

Fat Tuesday's

Blarney Stone


My girls are now with there dad safely in Indiana. They had such a great time with their grandparents. My mom called me last night and told me that they had made the switch and they spent sometime talking. They spent about 13 days with them and she is missing them already. It’s been about a week now without them. It’s been quite and well, boring actually. But I’m making the best of it and I plan on going to Myrtle Beach next week for the day. Walk around and do some shooting than hit one of the clubs or even the Hard Rock for some good food and a nice cold beer. It’s nice to be able to come and go whenever you want to and not have to worry about anything.
course beer. (Church Street Pub is Calling Me) 

I was still able to get some good shots while I was home, venturing out only in the mornings and evenings to shoot. I grew up in this house that my parents still live in. It has it’s problems but they seem to manage just fine. I can remember during the winters, my bedroom had no ceiling in it at the time, so no insulation either. I would sit a cup of water on my night stand before going to bed and waking up the next morning to find it frozen solid. In the summers we worried about scorpions and snakes and even other types of creatures getting into the house. I had plastic that was stapled to the rafters of the ceiling and I could lay in bed at night and here the bugs and lizards crawling right above me. I sounds horrible but I was used to it we all were. We managed fairly well and of course us kids complained just like everyone else.





















It’s Saturday and I’m now officially divorced. Not to say that divorce is a good thing, but it is a new beginning. I have been contemplating my life and where it is headed. I will have a whole month without the girls, and I can honestly say that I’m looking forward to some peace and quite. I hope to do some camping and just hang out with friends and looking for a job as well. I am sitting outside the library since it closed at 3 (sucks) squeezing out as much Internet service as I can. I got all caught up with my online class and bills, and now updating my blog for the last time until I get into Arkansas. We leave either on Tuesday or Wednesday I haven’t made up my mind yet. I have nothing to do here so I think we will leave on Tuesday, I am getting excited to get on the road. Anyway it’s hot out here and I’m headed to hang out with some friends this evening. Look for my next post from the great state of Arkansas…….. :0
It is the beginning of a long week. I’m starting off my day at the coffee shop, loading up on some caffeine and checking my emails and blackboard work. I have been without Internet for the whole weekend as well as being in a slump with no sense of urgency to get out of. I am moving a little bit quicker this morning knowing the fact that my ex is probably in town already. We have talked very little and I’m not sure what the outcome is going to be after the 10th but I will be as civil as I can, for the kids sake obviously.
Nashville TN Waterfront
Rosary
Mansfield is a small town that survives on the local Lumber Mill, and if it goes under Mansfield will become a ghost town. I grew up in this town and it has changed so much in the past 10 years. Some of the original buildings are still standing but most of them are gone. I can remember walking down this street to Don’s Drugs with my class while in elementary. We would all hold hands and walk to the store to get a scoop of ice cream during the summer. This was our so called field trips back then. I believe that Don is still in business but I’m not sure. I think I will take the girls to get some ice cream there if he is.The way this town looks early in the morning is great for shots with the Holga, I can’t wait. I’m going to stock up on film, and just take the Holga and my digital. That’s it, nothing more nothing less. This will keep me pretty busy in Arkansas and my trip back through Nashville.
This was the old bank and it sat on the right hand corner as you came into downtown. It is now gone replace with a park…








