Tired of being Tired….

Soooo Tired

This past week and the weeks to come have been and will be extremely busy. I have been working on my clinical Practicums for Elementary Education, going back and forth to the dentist, school work, and house work. Halloween is over and now I await for Thanksgiving. The girls will be leaving on the 21 to see their dad. I’m not sure if I have to pick them up on the 27th or the 29th, that part is up in the air. Either way I will have a couple of days to relax without all the noise. I will be headed down to Wilmington on the day I drop them off at the airport, will definitely hit some pubs, good food, and maybe walk down by the waterfront if it’s not too cold. I also have to set up another date for my Praxis I test, cross my fingers I pass this time around. Needless to say, if I can find time for myself within the next two weeks, it will be a miracle.

Well here are a few pictures from Halloween and Julia’s first Orchestra concert…. I have to get back to the books…

 

So Michelle took some pictures of the concert and she wanted me to post some of them.. Here are a few.

 

Fun Without The Sun

The weekend went pretty well, went to the pub Friday night and enjoyed some good beer and good company. Woke up the next morning and we were off to Wilmington for the JDRF Walk for the Cure. The girls had a good time, free food, fun, and games as always, even though the weather was a little unorganized.

Julia, shop at Mayfare Town Center

Michelle, trying to do the warm up exercises

Sunday was busy as well, with church, classes and choir. The weather turned and the temperature dropped and the rain came in on Monday morning., which has come and gone, as well as my fist half day observation. My first day went well, even though all I did was observe. Third graders are not as bad as I made them out to be. On to the next half day, many, many more to come.. Time to go to bed.. Exhausted, This weekend is going to be hectic as well, Fall Festival church on Friday, and of course Halloween on Saturday, and church on Sunday. whewww.. Busy, busy, busy.

I think I might take a walk on the beach in the morning, depending on the weather of course

Beach Tracks

Cooler Weather

It has been a week since the Oktoberfest at Harrikas’ Brew Haus. I had a great time, enjoyed free food, beer, and great live music from the My Three Kilts band. Here are a couple of shots of the festival. It was extremely hot that day, but now the cooler weather is rolling in this weekend.

The week has come and gone, including the weekend. Went to the pub last nigh and it was completly dead. Just me and a friend was there and no one else but the staff. I think it was too cold out. I took Michelle to her fall festival on Friday night and Julia went as well. They had a good time of course, as I chased each one around trying to keep tabs on them. I couldn’t keep up with Michelle long enough to get a picture, she was chasing down a boy.. OH NO!!!

So, the weekend is over and Monday is upon us. I have to get my in class observation scheduled, go to my Upper Level Divison interview, dental appointments, etc… It never ends. I’m counting down the days until Nov 21… This will be my break time.. I’m already exausted from writing this, but I have to keep blogging and updating as I go. Well got to get going, I have a baby shower to prepare for. Everyone try to stay warm it’s a cold one out there.. Brrrrrrrrr

End of the Season

I awoke the other morning to a beautiful pink sky in my backyard. It was a great day to take a brisk walk along the beach. I took my camera out this time around, knowing that I have seen everything before. The season has come to an end and everything that was once packed full of people are now empty. The once loud noises of kids laughing and running around, is now silent, and bare.

Empty Bumper Boats

Closed Track

Like I alway do, I walked out to Bouge Pier, watched the fisherman bring in what ever they could catch for the day, and continued on my way back. It was a peaceful walk, among all the spiders above the tree lines.

Saturday is here and we had the blessing of the animals at church this morning. It was nice, and even quite considering all the animals that were there. I had to keep Jaucie at bay, so Michelle was in charge of taking pictures. Here are a few she took, she captured some great ones.

The girls are going out to a birthday party tonight so I have some time too myself. Going to the pub for some great music, great beer, and some great friends.

God Bless Everyone and have a Peaceful Weekend.

Ready To Camp before Winter Sets In..

It has been a very long week and the weekend seemed to inch its way even slower. I have spent almost all weekend working on my ECU classes and they still never end. Monday has come and gone and I am longing for the weekend already. I’m planning on going camping one last time before winter sets in. Flanners Beach closes its gates on Decrmber 1st, and a few stay open year round but I like this one. It’s quiet and has many trails and a beach to sit on and watch the sun rise and set. I need to get away for awhile. I will try to get the girls to go with me, if not, they can stay with friends and I will go by myself. I have a week to myself in November not sure what I will do. Have to be somewhere that has WiFi..  sad really. I am running out of steam and I still have a long way to go but once this semester is over, it will slow down, its just getting to that point. Girls are staying pretty busy, school, choir, bake sales, softball, church classes. And, I bought Julia the Guitar Hero World Tour band kit and now we have started a band (Online Dummies).. Jewls is on the drums I am on the guitar and Michelle is the lead singer.. hahah…  Its fun… Well got to get some dinner than going bed early for me..

11 YEARS

Julia will be 11 years old tomorrow. Eleven years, makes you wonder where it all has gone. Tomorrow will be a family night out, she loves the #1 China Buffet in Jacksonville so it’s dinner in China town. This weekend has been pretty busy and I don’t forsee it slowing down. Had a small get together for Julia yesterday at the beach, it wasn’t too bad. The weather was nice and the beach wasn’t as packed as I thought it would be.

It’s been a tough week and I really need some time off. My emotions have been pushed to the brink and I have worn myself out, and now I am the 6th grade Catechist for my churches faith formation class, which is a good thing. I have been wanting to get more involved in my church and building up my faith. I have to go in on Wednesday morning to meet with Father Don about getting more involved also. so we will see what that has to offer. Church was really great today, it always seems to help when everything around you tends to fall apart. Maybe now I will feel like I have some kind of purpose.

God Bless..

OMG!!!!!!

I have had a weird weekend too say the least.. Friday pretty much started it off. I’m not too sure why I was in a slump but it wasn’t fun at all. I spent Friday and Saturday wondering what I’m even doing with my life. I woke up and for some reason I felt like I have no purpose, I’m not sure if it’s because I have no job (yet) or if it’s because my girls are constantly wanting more and more and I can’t seem to give enough. I wake up day in and day out and I get my girls ready for school, than I go for a run or to the gym. After that I come home, clean house and sit in front of this computer doing school work. I do this everyday and I get no where. I’m so tempted to just pack it all up and move to Colorado. Sunday has come and gone and I am feeling a little bit better. Church was great and it was rejuvenating. I am now throwing myself into the church and Michelle has joined the youth choir, and I’m so excited she will be singing this Sunday at the 11 am mass.

Annnnnnd…. My Broncos won today. Lucky….. yes, but they still won.. So my day has been better than the past couple. Thank God for that.

Check this amazing play out… GOOOOOOO BRONCOS

Sun is Finally Shining… :)

It is Tuesday September 8th. I am sitting in my living room enjoying the sun coming through my kitchen window. Yesterday was a long dreary, cold, and rainy day. It’s been awhile since I have posted anything new, and to tell you the truth nothing really has changed in my life. I’m three weeks into school and steadily moving ahead. Both of my girls are on the right track with their studies and I am now in search of a violin for Julia. She has joined the orchestra at her school and I’m in need ofa 1/2″ violin..I’m not sure if I want to buy one because she may hit a growth spurt and I would have to go out and find another one….. Her birthday is this month and she will be 11…. WOW…. It’s all going by so fast.. I might just go ahead and buy one.. Instead of paying 25 a month just pay 100 and it’s hers. Not sure yet.. She is excited about it and so am I. Her first concert is on Oct 27, during a Holloween contest.. Sounds fun.. Michelle is doing great as well. She is in the super kids club and loving it. They both will be starting their Religious Ed classes soon and we have a get together this Sunday for the start of the new year at St. Mildred.

We went over to a friend of mine last weekend and played around with some new lights she got in. It was a lot of fun to just shoot and practice with all of the equipment. Here are a few shots of the girls, you can tell that Michelle is always the goofy one :

Not sure what we are going to do this weekend. Maybe see if the pub has any live music or maybe go to Mac Daddy’s for some
football. Yeah… GOOOOO Broncos..     Undecided at this point.  Well I better get back to my classes, I have a couple more papers and posts to work on. I hope everyone enjoys the sun today.. Hoping it lasts awhile.  It looks like it’s about to let loose again.

The Real World!!

It has been almost a month since my birthday bash, and my little swim. I was cleaning out my drawers and came across the phone that received the brute of the swim that I had taken. I put in my old sim card and my battery and to my amazement, it worked screen and all. I was able to download some pics of a beautiful sunset from that night and now I have a back up phone when I need it. Life is great…

My girls are in school and doing well. My classes are all in order and up to date. I will have Internet at home on Monday, thank God… My bills are paid for the month, and I’m starting a new workout regiment on Monday. So far life is okay. I have a couple of papers to write one I can hold off until next week, the other I would like to finish it by tomorrow so I can enjoy the weekend. Also, I am working on getting my passport application filled out and sent off next week. I have a big trip next year and I am determined to go.

On another note, I have been feeling a little bit lonely lately. Even though the girls are here and I have been keeping myself busy there is still that one element that is missing. Everywhere I go I see couples together, holding hands, going to the movies, going to the beach, and more. I miss the connection like that with someone. I miss hearing someone say I miss you or someone who wants to be with me in spite of all the things I have got going on in my life.
Then when I sit down to think about it, it is also nice to just be on your own. It’s nice to be able to go anywhere you want and not have to answer to no one. But in reality you can only take that for so long. My oldest daughter, who will be 11 in the next couple of weeks, has a boyfriend. She is only in the sixth grade and of course she has no idea what the concept of having a boyfriend is but she has one. I was joking around with her last night and said that she could have a boyfriend as long a I had one. Well I don’t have one so she couldn’t have one, that didn’t work out very well.
The weekend is here and I plan on relaxing. I plan on doing as much as I can today, clean the house, fold clothes, and work on my paper. Maybe I will be able to get out and go to the pub for a beer or two, not quite sure I have to play it by ear. September is here already and Julia’s birthday is coming sooner than I thought. This year has flown by and I’m sure next year will be the same.

I was talking to a very special friend of mine and we both came to a conclusion about life. Things have changed and relationships aren’t quite like they used to be. Now a days people don’t stay together much anymore, and it’s getting harder to find that one person who will be with you forever. I personally don’t want to be alone that long. I’m not saying that change is a bad thing, I mean if you are happy with the way things are than so be it. I just hate being alone, especially when I know what I want and I know I can’t have it. That is the hardest part to deal with. Anyway…………………………….. I will deal with the best way I know how… stay busy and leave it up to God…..

On top of everything else I found out this morning that my great Aunt passed away last night from cancer. She has been struggling for quite some time now and it finally caught up with her. I vaguely remember her but family is family and hurts just the same. I know she is in a better place, a place where there is no pain or suffering and that comforts me in the long run. Even though I complain about being lonely and having bad days I am so grateful to just be here. I try to cherish each and every moment that I can and love the ones who mean the most to me.

Back to the Daily Grind…..

The last weekend before school starts is over. I took the girls to a little water park in Emerald Isle the other day and just spent the day enjoying the sun and the cool water. This summer has been ok, I have had time for myself and my friends. These last two weeks I have tried to spend as much time as I could with my girls before everything goes insane. I’m finally getting Internet at the house this week so I will not have to go to the coffee shop or library everyday. Although I enjoy getting coffee and working on the computer. Spill the Beans is a nice place. My life is in full swing and I will be juggling school, kids, and hopefully a new job soon. As for my personal life, ha……. Crazy as always. I have a big trip planned for next August so I am putting money away for that and hopefully by then I will be able to go.. As always I am still contemplating moving to Denver.

Me and my sister tried our hands in snowboarding a couple years ago at Winter Park. It was the best time I have ever had even though I almost broke my wrist. It is still one of the best places to live. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better for me to start over and give my kids a new outlook on life. But they like it here and I have a descent place to live and great friends. Starting over is never easy but I’m still thinking about it. Denver is one of the top 10 cities to live. Low crime rate, great schools, fabulous weather. There is snowboarding, camping, hiking, mtn climbing, white water rafting and much more. Whether you prefer snowboarding in the Rocky Mountains, biking through America’s largest city park system, or heading over to Invesco Field at Mile High for a Broncos football game, Denver is a wonderful place to be a kid. Also among the country’s safest big cities, Denver has 300 days of annual sunshine, eight different professional sports franchises, and countless opportunities for fishing, white-water rafting, and horseback riding. Maybe I’ll move there when the kids are out of the house, that is about………….9 years from now.. whewwwww. Long time.

This year has gone by so fast, I have no idea where it went. This month is pretty much over in a couple of days and than it’s into September. After that is is three months until Christmas than the new year, 2010. So scary to think that 2010 is almost here. My 15 year high school reunion is next year and will I probably won’t go to that one either. When 2015 rolls around I will go to my 20th, which will be here sooner than I want to even think about. I’m not sure what is going to happen in two years much less know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life works in mysterious ways. Well I have to get out of here before my kids start a riot… Until next time, always remember to Smile.